Well, here it is, 8:28am and I'm still awake. It's not that I don't want to sleep; in fact I'm actually in a love/hate relationship right now with my sleep cycle. I do love being up all night, meeting all these interesting/weird/downright annoying people on early morning CoD sessions, but it isn't always moonbeams and bat wings.
I miss the sun.
Now granted, I do get to see the sun for a couple hours everyday. A couple hours. I will say it is A LOT easier than during the winter, when it's dark when I leave for work and dark when I head home. That was right horribly depressing. I am 100% certain I had seasonal depression, and it got bad.
But, I'm better now. I've put in my two weeks notice at work, I've applied and been accepted to an excellent university which I will be attending in the fall, and I've got a brand new MacBook to help me with my school work. Life is...decent. I really need this. Getting away from my hometown, meeting new people, making new friends. Maybe I'll even meet a nice guy who will be patient enough to wait for the stupid walls around my soul to crumble. It's hard to get my hopes up for that though.
Anyway, lets look to the future! As I mentioned previously, I've been accepted to a university; St. Thomas University actually. It's a liberal arts institution, and I've decided to major in psychology! I've been reading a little into psychology and I actually can't believe just how interested I am in it's topics. I actually went through all of their psych courses and I literally want to take almost all of them. Which obviously isn't allowed.. *sadface*
Now, people kept asking me, "What are you going to do with your degree?", "What do you want as a career?" and to be honest with you, I wasn't sure. All I knew was that I was extremely interest in the subject. I kept looking into it, asking myself, "What part of psychology am I interested in the most?"
Behaviour. I want to know why people do what they do, their thought process, possible why they may think abnormally. All these things intrigue me. Now I'm not naive enough to believe that I could do what they do on Criminal Minds (love that show), but I think I'd really enjoy analyzing younger children and adolescents who exhibit warning signs of potentially detrimental psychological problems. Basically I want to see whether or not they'll become killers later in life.
Anyway, I think I'll stop typing now and grab some Tylenol, my head is killing me! I would love it so so much if you'd leave some feedback for me, let me know what you like or don't like, suggest a topic for me to ramble on about.. I'm game.
Ps - Yes it took me almost half an hour to write this.. And yes I fucked it up and deleted like half of it by mistake..don't judge
